Tuesday, May 5, 2009
The Elements Of Me!
As I come into the lab, I must say that I am not feeling all that great. No it is not the weather, I just have a few things on my mind. Of course I will explain the best way I can...using the elements!
Kr - Krypton; yes I do have some weaknesses. One of my biggest weaknesses is trust. I find it very difficult to trust anyone, whether it be in a relationship or not. I am working on it but it is a slow and steady process to get to the point of being a totally trusting person. I have been told the I am skeptical...which is quite true. I have seen that most people in the South are skeptical. We are cautious of people I guess because we kind of are suspicious anyway and not very easily fooled. It is not like the movies or television shows, most of us from the South have a sense about things and if it doesn't smell right we run far away.
I find myself letting my guard down in my personal life, but in my professional life...there is an armed guard with explosives and laser detection devices watching every move. I think it has something to do with how I have been done before and also knowing how people act like thieves in the night in the workplace. I leave my personal business where it belongs...on my person. I hope that I can get over this trust thing. I don't know...it seems that the longer I have been in this area...DMV that is... the less trusting of people I am. Very strange I would say!
H - Hydrogen; I chose Hydrogen because it is the most abundant element in the universe...and speaking of abundant...yes I am back on my weight again. I have gained in 6 months the 20 pounds I have lost. Now if I look at this empirically I have gone from 405 back in 2000 to 215 in 2008 and now I am back to 235. The weight is coming off,I have already lost about 15 pounds and I have much more to go. Now some people may be mad at the way I am going about my weight loss...but sorry. If I got to the well and to the water the way I did before...why can't I do it now? I feel much better and yeah I might be doing just a tiny bit of damage, but when I get to my weight and get it tight like it is supposed to be then I will be feeling much better. Think of it as taking out all of the stops to increase my sexiness...I will still be sexy!
Na - Sodium; Many people may not know this but Sodium exists in nature as a metal. This is not the Sodium or salt that you may find in food items..this is totally different from that kind of salt. That type is an ionic bond which is a bind between a metal and nonmetal...I am just talking pure Sodium. Sorry for the lesson!
In addition, if you take pure Sodium and throw it into a bucket of water, you will create a violent explosion. I have done that with some of my old students and scared the crap out of them. I mention sodium because I am feeling quite reactive at this time. I have this thinking and ideal that I want to have some stability, and I had it for about 2 months...and now all is haywire again. I do not get it but I am trying to roll with it. It is not that I am not thankful for all that is going on, but I don't know where this is going. I am good for moving with the winds of change, but this wind is a special one in which it's direction has no constant direction nor origin...I suppose this is what I get.
U - Uranium; Many folks know this element and yes it is a highly unstable and radioactive element. It's used in weaponry only if it is enriched. I will not go into how to do that for fear I may be taken into custody. I only use my powers for good. I have chosen this element to explain how I feel about these holidays like Mother's Day and Father's Day! I feel it is all good to have a holiday of the sort to celebrate the parents of those who have adopted children...it is cool to also have the holiday to remind us of those we have lost...but I am a believer that my mother became a mother when I was born...so that is Mother's Day for me. I get my Mommy a present on my day of birth...she didn't have to bring me into the world but she did. Hence, that is Mother's Day to me. I will also say the same for father's on their day. I don't really have a relationship with my father...which is all good. I am not even saying I want to be a Dad either...I am not real sure about that at all, it is a big responsibility, and I know I am no where mature to have a child now! Most of you all know that already. It is a real touchy and highly unstable topic for some. many women will not be with or marry a man that is nou 100% sure of an affirmed answer of yes to have a child. I don't know about that and I think it is fair to say what I have said. Should I be an outcast or not wanted by a lady if I say that?
In any event I got some of the stuff off of my chest. The glasses go back and the jacket on the hanger...I'll be back later!!