Spantaneous Reactions...Part 2

I have smeared marks on my safety glasses...a sweaty and black smudged lab coat on from changing a tire last night. I was supposed to deliver something last night and I have a right rear tire that is flat when I walked outside. The firestone was closed so I went on and changed it and well went home. I am glad I keep a clean car but man it was soooo hot and changing it was a chore but I thank God I had some energy to change it and will deliver the package today. I am mentioning this because yesterday was a trying day and well it is all in how the perception of things are. I can either be pissed I had a flat tire...or be glad I have the ability and the funds to get new tires...which is what I am waiting on now...2 new tires and get the other new ones later.

My reaction to this is what is key...change the tire and keep going. Sure it might be an eye sore, for a little while but soon all will be back to normal and that you adapt to change. I was talking with a good good friend of mine that happens to carry a lot of clout with the "3 letter' people and I was going to inform him of one of his rude employees. I was asking about the person when he asked me a question that shocked me..."So you had the interview?" I said to him no. The rest is shocking to me because I must really be wanted. In order to go where I am and to have to take the methods I have taken so far...usually an interview is done...Thank God for Jesus...is this another sign of how things are meant to be and that I am truly in God's favor?

This morning I made my special appearance to pin one of my former students...who is my cousin since she says it would mean a lot to her and that I was her favorite teacher. So I get up this morning looking as only I can look and I am looking sharp...I'll take a pic later...and I go to the old school. Yes...an appearance by the famous Mr. Harris! I am still in awe...I have never received so much love from those kids and the teachers as well. It is really one of those teary eyed things because I did love teaching and I did love being in that building being me and helping people to learn more than just chemistry...but about life as well. I did it my way...with a lot of humor and tough love. With a lot of listening to those students and learning from them as well. They do not hold on to stuff like us adults do...the next day they speak and go about their business..something that I am working on and getting good at as well...letting stuff go!

It is also amazing how people look at you when they have done you dirty...they can't look you in the eye. I smiled and shook the new principal's hand..he could not look me in the eye...we all know why. You can't keep a good man down...couldn't keep Job, couldn't keep Lazarus, couldn't keep Jesus...and you sure can't keep me down!! It felt really good to see my former co-workers again, and they all know that I can still teach my butt off if I wanted too...I still got the stuff baby!!

So there it is so far in one whole complete day...spontaneous reactions...how to cope...how to know you have made an impact...and how to be humble...all in one complete and nice package. Now time to clean off the glasses and lab coat...until next time!!

Spontaneous Reactions...

I step into the lab with a lot of mixed emotions. There was something that happened here at work that saddened me...some people we laid off...and one of them was on my staff. I will say that from the initial time we were working together I had some concerns, and I was determined to see what I could do to get him and train him to be better. I must say that he is well on his way! I spoke with him earlier and he said that he was frustrated with me at the beginning....my deadlines...what does he want me to do next...and he thanked me for helping him to get it together. That makes me feel good. I would say for the past month or so he has been on fire and just really taking ownership on what he needs to get done...I am very proud of him and wish him nothing but the best...

Another part of my reactions are one of extreme uncertainty. I do not know what the heck I am doing...as far as work is concerned. I have a clue, and sometimes I know what to do but lately...I am a little lost. I know me. I am about production and getting the job done and moving to the next thing. I suppose that my either one thing or the other nature does not work well in corporate America, so I will adjust. Speaking with...hmmm...I want to use her nickname...well Kayla...lol... earlier put some stuff in perspective. I do not have to know every darn thing and it is okay not to know. I suppose ignorance is bliss at times and that it is cool not know. Enjoy the process of getting to know and be willing to make a mistake. I know it is hard for me to do but it will have to suffice at the time.

Next in the chemistry world you have 2 step reactions, because the first does not go to completion. One example is acetic acid and sodium bicarbonate... the mixing and reacting of vinegar and baking soda respectively...Carbon dioxide is produced, water, and a salt...I am being technical because I have made now a 2 step reaction. All paperwork is complete for 3 letter friend's but now is the second part...sitting and waiting. It seems it all comes at a time in which I am scheduled to move and I can't find a place I will be satisfied with...and then how long will I be there provided the 3 letter friends want to proceed forward...talking about your 2 step...multi step reactions. Oh well I will proceed with my life as nothing will change..keeping my mind ready for changes. Aha I suppose that this is what it is all about...adapting to change...whether it be a good or bad change...adapt, adapt, adapt! Lord Jesus help me!!

Speaking of changes, time to put the safety glasses and lab jacket back until later...

Weather or not...

As I walk into the lab it is not as vigorous as it usually is..it is more of a slow monotone stroll that is painful in some ways. I am not very happy, yeah I will be the first to admit it. It is not because my life is not going well...it is actually pretty good and I can't complain..it is because of the weather. I am not a fan of warm weather at all, it really just bothers the heck out of me. I get hot easily..and begin to sweat...more than R. Kelly at a chuck-E-Cheese birthday party! I am not depressed or anything but I am not a fan of hot weather. So it has my mood down a little bit. I hate to say goodbye to winter for awhile but I guess I will have to. SO as I say goodbye I will take off the jacket and goggles...

Tie me Up!!

I woke up this morning not at my usual time of 5:30am...no I woke up at 6:10am...yes one minute to spare to change the t.v. channel to NBC 4 and watch the weather and traffic on the "1's" (that's what they call it). I looked in my closet and remembered it is Friday...so I don't have to wear a tie...yes a tie! But really I don't have to wear a tie to work in the first place! I just like wearing a tie and I have come up with this determination after looking in my closet. Please make sure you have no sharp objects around you when you read the next sentence...I truly do believe I have OCD...Obsessive–compulsive disorder. I look at my ties...over 200 more like 300...but it is like every time I see a tie...that appeals to me...I have to get it. Price is not an obligation for me not to buy. I will get it and make sure it coordinates with my wardrobe.

Speaking of wardrobe...Obsessive–compulsive disorder on sneakers. But they have to be weird looking and the one's no one else wants. Yes I will pay a cool 20 bucks for some skate board kicks...or 30 bucks on some Nike's no one would dare want to wear...it's just me. I like the weird stuff.

Then when it comes to music...Obsessive–compulsive disorder on the amount of songs in my Zune or compact discs that I own...by what artist...what genre'...

the whole enchilada...speaking of food...Obsessive–compulsive disorder on what is in my freezer and my cupboards, I mean I must have at least 6 or 7 packs of chicken breast tenderloins in my freezer right now, 3 jumbo boxes of microwave popcorn, tons of canned goods, tons of frozen veggies, and the list goes on...

I wonder how I sleep at night knowing these things...speaking of sleeping...Obsessive–compulsive disorder...how many pillows, sheet sets, comforter sets do I have...it is crazy. Just like to change up, but I don't think my mother has as many as I do...

it is like a movie that changes from one scene to another...speaking of movies...that's right...Obsessive–compulsive disorder! I remember when I moved to the DMV in 2005 I only owned 20 DVDs...well it is at least 10 times that amount.

I don't know folks but there has to be something wrong with me. I mean I do not even have a membership to Sam's Club or B.J.'s Wholesale and I buy everything in bulk...

it really stinks...Yeah you guessed it...speaking of aromas....Obsessive–compulsive disorder! I have many sticks of a particular deodorant, bottles, and bottles of fragrances, and I just have a plethora of potion...I don't know it just seems to be something that I have to have.

In any event I could go on for days, but this has to stop! As usual...I will take off my safety glasses and hang up the lab jacket...until next time!!

What to do when your reaction changes?

Well here I am writing this first one...blog that is. I welcome all who read this and let me tell you...the things you may read might make you laugh, cry, get angry, a various portal of emotions...but I do not mince my words for anyone...thus...we shall begin.

Things are ever changing when I think that I am becoming stable. I have a great job that I am thankful for everyday and is a challenge at times, but I am still learning...I have not even been here a full 3 months yet, but I do feel like I am making an impact in the world of science...Chemistry to be more specific. Now, I get an e-mail from 3 letters that will change my life again! I am retired from teaching and I go into the lab from time to time...the lab I love...teaching I don't, but I digress. Three letters got in contact with me and now I have said yes to them...they will look through all the things I have done and whatever is in my C/V of life to make sure i am worthy of continuing...and to boot I get to talk to them and have my answers judged...FUN!! So now what do I do...If the price is right I will go again...and I can't move to anymore jobs. I have been one that will stay and move up...moving up the ladder rather than make lateral moves, and yes I am sure it will be exciting...I get to choose a new place to live possibly...and I think about being stable...well hey what can I do? I am one who will calculate the risk...and then take it. I am open to opportunities, and though I may be making relationships, bills, family distance, either large or small...I can not for the life of me just say NO!! Yes the even tempered, crazy talking dude that I am has a fire that really burns to not be complacent. I do enjoy the simple things in life and enjoy my solitude when I have a chance to get it...which is most of the time...but I am always hungry to do more with my life. I am always hungry to achieve, being finished with something is an accomplishment...but I want to do more than the others have...I want to make sure I am satisfied with my accomplishment, goal achieved, anticipated outcome complete...that's just me!

It may be a personality flaw...but again it is me. I don't apologize for being me...I will apologize when I am wrong...and I am not when it cones to this in my life. So I will now take off my safety glasses and lab jacket and place my pen down for now. I'll open my book up later...